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Monday, April 28, 2008
I don't intentionally go after guys are in relationship (girlfriend, finance or wife) - normally these guys are off limits however the flip side to that is if he comes on to me and doesn't tell me he has a girlfriend or a finance or a wife(whichever the case may be) until I ask because he's acting so weird or doesn't act upon his desires, then yea, I might pursuit him or at least play with him a little..
Do I feel bad or guilty about potentiallly damaging his relationship? Or guilty playing with a guy that's in a relationship. No, not at all. He's the one potentially damaging his relationship. He needs to ask himself, is he completely 100% happy in the relationship? And then ask himself, if he was out there flirting with me (as in this case) and wanting/desiring to do more then there is already something wrong in his relationship. I'm not the cause, I just happened to be the one he likes/wants to play with. And why the hell would I stop him? (as in this case, he instantly turns me on, like I'm soaking wet turned on).
Would I feel bad about hurting these two people in a relationship? Yes and no, if I cared about the guy - I wouldn't want to hurt him (I could make him feel a whole lot better). But her, I don't know her, I have no feelings toward her.
Would I want to date this person that potentially wants to damage his relationship or already has cheated on her? Maybe, in this case, like I said before I'm instantly turned on by him. I like him as a person, he's smart, creative and hot and we like alot of the same things sexually, if he was single, yea, I'd definetly want to date him. But that's not always the case, there were a couple of ones few years ago, I didn't want to date them, we're still friends but I had no desire to date or be with them. In general, no, why would I want to date a guy that cheats on his girlfriend, he'd probably cheat on me too.
I seem to be drawn to smart, creative, hot, young unavailable guys (many of which never tell me they have girlfriends until I ask) I figure one day, one of them is bound to be single again, maybe I'll get lucky..lol I know what I like, I know what turns me on, I know the kind of person I want to be with.
Have I ever been cheated on? Yes and it broke my heart into little bitty pieces and it took me a long time to get over him. But it wasn't working between us and it hadn't been for a long time even though we kept trying. She wasn't the problem, something between us was and it took me a long time to realize that. She wasn't to blame. I don't think he was really to blame either - I couldn't say that before now but it wasn't anyone's fault, it just wasn't working. I honestly have to say if he was single again - I'd go for him a heartbeat - at least to play, we were good at that. (but alas he's getting married to her and I'm happy for him - he's off-limits - so sometimes is works out, sometimes it doesn't)
Curiosity killed the cat. One thing I'm always curious about though is that other person in the relationship (1) is she a cute little blond? (2) how old is she? And you ask why do I want to know how old she is because I've learned something as I've gotten older, when we're young and in our 20s (at least for me and a few women I've asked) we're not as experienced sexually. We grew up thinking things were taboo and many women never outgrow that thinking - then again they won't be reading this blog either because its not a good thing. Or maybe some of us are more naturally inclined to be open about our bodies and what makes us feel good, as we mature we gather more knowledge and we learn to new ways to satisfy our men. And now you're probably wondering why i wonder if she's a cute little blond, because I like cute little blonds - turns me on.
Does that make me a bitch? I don't think so, if you know me, you know I'm not. If you know me, you know I care about my friends and I would never hurt them intentionally.
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nominated for 2007 Best Of Blog Award ::::
Saturday, April 26, 2008
So I've been nominated for 2007 Best Of Blog Award - if you like what you're reading here, go vote for me....... www.thebestofblogs.com. Remember voting begins May 5th so make sure you pass the word to your friends, family, and faithful followers.
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Avon and I'm not referring to the makeup, just a little history lesson
avon comes from the word afen or afon meaning river; its a Brythonic/Celtic word meaning river
I could dive deeper into this subject but this is an erotic blog, so I'll keep short and simple. It was just on my mind and thought I'd get it out there for someone.
so much for trying to get him out of my head today..lol but I swear sometimes it like I'm dealing with two different people. The one that is here working is quiet, shy, does his job and feels like he is afraid to look at me. The other one who is cocky and funny and someone I'd like to get to know a hell of lot better only comes out when we're texting or im'ing. I swear you'd think he was a gemini or something but I know he's not. If I could figure out how to get the cute, cocky, funny guy into the live person I'd be set. Its amazing how wet he makes me, just the thought of his gorgeous blue eyes or his smile - when he does smile or his ass - ok, so that's a little odd for me, not normally a girl that looks at a guy's ass - but this one, yea, it turns me on. Great mental image without the boxers. Gotta go, I'm trying to get him off my mind today so I can focus and work - yesterday was shot, after he left, I went out and had more to drink and caught up with old friends, came home feel asleep and had this amazing dream...which is cumlating into a story soon...it will be the first story up on the new site very soon.
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he likes to be dominated ::::
Monday, April 21, 2008
ok, so he likes to be dominated, she can handle that and she's putting her plan into action tommorrow. He made her tired, a good tired, a satisfied tired and yet it was all still virtual through texting. They danced around the tension all day and finally told her to go take a nap, why was he so insistence on her taking a nap? Was he thinking he could go to her? She wasn't asleep the whole time, she heard him masturbating in the bathroom and she too was imaging his fingers fucking her while she listened. She wanted him there was no doubt about it and he was interested, so what was stopping him?......
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changes coming soon ::::
Saturday, April 19, 2008
think it might be time for a change, more serious yet erotic change, I'd like to give this more time and I need to start taking more time for myself and do something I'm passionate about, lost my sexy muse for awhile, actually she might have been discouraged with me, but she's back and I'm back.
And since I really have't moved all my archives over yet from indecent, I have them backed up, just not posted as of yet - its a good time to change again.
If you've just started reading - don't worry, you're not going to lose the connection - there will be a link up and if I can figure it out, this will point to the new location as soon as you log in here.
anyways, isis is too linked to so many other things - she's still my dream muse, she's just out there working hard to get my dreams set in motion
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you know what is sexy? ::::
Thursday, April 17, 2008
the thought of him naked and masturbating and getting off while reading one of my stories - that is so hot. Would have loved to be a fly on the wall watching
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until next time
she wanted him to make the first move, push her against the wall, grab her head and kiss her, guess she's going to have to make the first move next time, they were so close so many times and yet she wasn't sure until the texting started
(in retrospect, she's a space, there were so many clues)
how she wished she was in the truck with him on the way to nowhere, as he pulled out his hard cock and started to stroke it, up and down while she watched, she loved to watch his hand moving deliciously up and down imaging her tongue swirling the head of his cock and her mouth watering at the thought of tasting him, feeling him against the back of her throat, could she do it from this angle?
fast forward a few minutes, he's home and naked, sitting in front of the computer, reading erotica, she imagines herself kneeling in front of him, taking him in her mouth, slowly, licking, drinking in his scent while her hand slyly slides down her jeans to her clit, oh, she is so wet, she knew she was wet but ohhh, so much more than she realized. The window is open, the front door is open and she is expecting a client to show up any minute and yet she can't wait, she needs release now. Damn these jeans are tight yet there is no way she can slip out of them for a minute not while she is waiting, slowly she starts to rub her clit imagining her mouth on his hard hot cock, throbbing and pulsing, his hand on her head, slowly licking, teasing and then her own needs overcome her as she imagines watching him stroke his hard cock and cumming..then he disappeared, leaving her wet and frustrated..
until next time
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twisted ::::
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
original story written on August 21-30th, 2005
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I think I need to finish this story - there needs to be a beginning or maybe another chapter but then again, I get sidetracked alot..at least now it has a title
de..funny thing, this isn't neccessarily about you but you'll find interesting inspirations from you
now onto the story
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Part 1
with bated breath, she stirs from a catnap, stretching out her long legs, looking him straight in the eye "I'm getting married," she says. He looks at her dumbfounded. What had he been thinking letting her go all those years ago and now she was getting married to someone else. WTF? They had been friends on and off the last few years and they were dating other people but he didn't realize that it had gotten serious for her with someone else. He always thought she be there when he needed her, when he was in between relationships, when he needed that safe comfort loving place, he could go to her and now she was getting married? Where the hell did that come from? He knew they hadn't really talked in a few months but still, WTF?
"Say something? Aren't you happy for me?" He closed his mouth, he realized it was wide open, in shock. What was he suppose to say? Don't marry him, I love you. No, he couldn't say that, he couldn't hurt her again and it would mean she knew the truth of his feelings when she walked away from him the second time around.
His current girlfriend situation threw his butt out the door when she woke up to hear him moaning her name the second time in a month and now she was getting married to someone else. How could he be so so stupid? He came to tell her how he felt and it was too late or was it?
He wondered did he still arouse those feelings deep inside her heart. NO, he told himself, be happy for her, smile and say something now. But what was he suppose to say when his heart was in turmoil. Damn, this must be how she felt all those years ago having to let go and move on with her life.
She looked at him, his gorgeous eyes and sexy smile and she knew she still had deep feelings for him and always would but she had finally fallen in love again with someone new, someone that made her a priority in his life. Someone that she could trust as deeply as she trusted her best friend, someone that surprised like he did, someone that shared her passion for sex everyday, someone who would cuddle with her at night. He would always be her best friend but she couldn't wait forever. Knock it off, her mind thought. It was over a long time ago between you too and don't even think about kissing him.
He finally blurted, "Who?"
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Part 2
She looked at him, like he was not making sense or something. Who the fuck is it he wondered?
"Oh, come on, you know," she said, "its Jeff."
WTF? His best friend? When did they hook up? "But he doesn't live here," he blurted again. Although he remembered his friend telling him he was moving back and slowly looking around the room, he realized that the things in there were Jeff's things. Why didn't that dawn on him before? Did he just rationalized that she had the same taste as Jeff? OMG, he couldn't tell her the truth now, he couldn't fuck up her happiness or his best friend's happiness or could he?
She looked at him, wondering what was going through his mind. He seemed distraught, looking around the room.
His mind was racing, he had to get out of there. He sat instead and stared at her, "I need a drink."
"What's wrong? Aren't you thrilled?" she asked. Stretching again, her robe slightly exposing her breasts. oops, she thought, pulling her robe closed. She could see the smile start to spread on his lips. Just a little tease to ease the tension, maybe one last time. NO, she couldn't think like that
Damn, he wanted her. He wanted to play with her nipples, bite them and caress her. Hold her close. He could feel his cock getting hard. He wanted to thrust deep inside her, kiss her passionately, feel her wetness surround him. NO, he had to stop thinking like that. He couldn't do that to Jeff.
She got off the couch, exposing her ass, and went into the kitchen to get him a drink. He looked like he seriously needed something. She came back to the living room and sat down, handing him his drink. "Are you alright?" She wanted him badly. She was so wet. She wanted to bend over the couch and have him fuck her ass.
"How long have you two being seeing each other? When did you two hook up? Where is Jeff right now?"
She didn't answer right away. Her mind was lost in her sensations. She moved her hand across her thigh, inching her silky robe up. She wanted to grab her nipples and pinch them. "I don't know, he's off somewhere filming something. He could be back any moment." She stood up and walked towards him. She leaned down and kissed him hard and passionately, while her hands swiftly undid his belt and pulled out his hard throbbing cock. She immediately lowered her head and started licking his cock, slightly moaning.
He didn't stop her. What was he thinking? Jeff could walk in the door at any moment. What would he do?
She stopped and stood up, leaned over the couch exposing her ass. "I want to feel you in my ass now!"
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the questions..
where is Jeff?
what will he do?
does he do as she wishes?
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Part 3
lets back up a moment..
part 1 synopsis: They are best friends - she is getting married and just told him. He's in a daze because he has come to tell her he's in love with her and finally blurts out "Who?"
part 2 synopsis: She tells him that its his long time best friend, Jeff, that ask her to marry him. She exposes herself to him, leans over and kisses him and starts to suck his cock. She leans over the couch and says, "I want to feel you in my ass now!"
we are left with several questions:
where is Jeff?
what will he do?
does he do as she wishes?
Characters need names before we move forward to part 3, me thinks people are getting confused
Her name is Isis
His name is Aaron
and Jeff is the finance
and now onto part 3....
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Aaron looks at her ass, it looks delicious, what the fuck is he going to do? Oh what the hell, she's inviting him to fuck her and she said that Jeff was out filming and he knew when Jeff got to filming, he got lost in the moment and it might be hours before he came up for air. One last time with Isis, why not, could he just walk away after this, he didn't know but she had. He stood up slowly, he pants dropped to the floor. He reached down to the table and grabbed the cherry lube sitting plainly in view, did Jeff fuck her here, he wondered? He drizzled the lube down her ass and started to massage the lube into her ass. He drizzled lube on himself, coating his hard cock.
Isis looked behind her, oh my, he was rubbing the lube on his hard cock, she loved to watch a man stroke himself. And the sensations where his fingers where playing with her ass, ooooooo. She felt him move towards her clit, he was rubbing the lube everywhere, she wanted to feel his tongue licking it off her.
Aaron gently put his hard cock against her ass and entered her, she was gently bucking back into him, she wanted him. He heard her whisper, "deeper, harder." He complied, he started to thrust into her faster and harder, grabbing her ass with both hands to steady her. He brought one hand around her waist and found her clit. She was so wet, he started to pinch and rub her clit, she bucked harder. He was pounding her ass. He reached up and pulled her up to him, deeply kissing her. He reached up and grabbed her tits, pulling at them. He moved his hands back down to her ass and grabbed her ass, pulling himself deeper and deeper within her.
Her legs were shaking, she was moaning. Oh my, she was in heaven. She could hear him moaning. Oh my, he was close.
Aaron could feel her almost to the brink, she was close. Her hands were gripping the edge of the couch and she exploded, he could almost feel her vibrating against him. He couldn't take it anymore and with one last deep thrust, he came in her ass. He collapse on top of her back.
She was out of breath and as she opened her eyes, the room was a more vibrant color. She felt Aaron slightly kiss her back as he lifted his weight off of her.
Isis trembled under him, he loved when he left her trembling and shaking. He slowly moved back, kissing her slightly as moved. He licked the cherry lube off her ass and lazily licked her clit from behind. She trembled even more, he gently bit her clit and pushed his tongue deep into her pussy, savoring her taste. He felt her thighs clench as another powerful orgasm overwhelmed her, her juices flowing down his chin. Satisfied, he leans back, pulled up his pants and sits down.
Isis couldn't move, she was in a daze. She wanted to feel his tongue back in her pussy now. She slowly recovers, pulls her robe back on and leans over to kiss him, tasting herself all over him, she licks his chin to taste herself even more and then she sits back down on the couch grinning at him.
They hear a car pulling into the driveway and then Jeff walked into the house. Isis jumps up and runs to him, kissing him passionately on the lips as if nothing had happened. She's good, Aaron thought to himself.
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With a start, Aaron, shakes his head and hears Jeff talking to him, "dude, are you ok?" Aaron looks around wildy, Isis is sitting on the couch next to Jeff innocently looking at him, wearing a tshirt and shorts. Jeff has his hand on Isis' thigh. WTF, weren't they just by the door kissing? They both had a look of concern directed towards him. WTF is going on? He felt like he was in the twilight zone.
Jeff looks at him again and says, "dude, it looks like you were lost in your head or something. Do you want another beer?"
Oh my god, Aaron realizes it was all a dream or was it? He licks his lips and he can still taste her, he touches his lips and they feel sticky. He can smell her on him, his taste buds overwhelmed with her scent.
Isis licks her lips, winks at him and turns and kisses Jeff passionately and deeply. Jeff looks at her and says, "I see someone has been playing." Then Jeff looks at him, "did she include you? Sometimes she is so selfish and play with herself before I get home."
Aaron too stunned to speak, shakes his head. Twisted, was it a dream?
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Halloween 2005 ::::
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Interesting Halloween Party..I dressed up as a gothic archangel and no one knew who I was, when they realized, everyone said it was a good look for me, that I looked hot and sexy.
The party was at one of my client's house and it was a great party except that Z and S started hitting on me at a certain point.
Now don't get me wrong, both are hot and in all honesty, I wouldn't mine having S lick my pussy, I'd love to play with her but no way in hell do I want to incur the wrath of her girlfriend, who happens to be another client of mine and someone I like, plus she's a big women. And many of times, I've fantasized about touching her but nothing will ever come of it.
And Z, if he wasn't married, I'd love to feel him in my ass, grab his ass and pull him deep into me or suck his hard cock but he's married and apparently bi-sexual as he told me in detail how he likes to have a hard cock in his ass. So that explains why all of his friends are gay, it was like one of those ah-ha moments when the light bulb goes off but he also likes pussy and he would to fuck me. He thinks his wife is too skinny and he likes women with a little extra padding, so one like myself might asked, why did he marry her? He's told me before that he really doesn't like sex with her, she's not adventurous enough. I'm confused on that point. Besides those mysterious questions, he came up to me at one point and kissed my chest, then started pawing me and kept trying to kiss me, I kept having to tell him no and pushing him away. Now thinking about it, if he had pulled me into a closet or into the bathroom, I might have gone for it but his wife was in the house. And if he pulled me into a hidden room in the office, damn he could definetly get on his knees and bite me.
Z told me I should work S, that she was interested. Oh god, how did that happened? And I had no idea that he was interested, he's totally cool. I wasn't drunk, they were. Z apologized today for everything which tells me that he remembers what he said, I mean if he didn't what did he apologize for.
Anyways, I have a huge grin on my face, its not like it unusual for Z to hit on me, he's done it before. I just never knew in detail what he'd like to do to my body and he's never touched me like he did that night. He also told me about the power exchange, interesting, might go check that out.
Although, I've got to say, when I ask my friends to go with me to a party, would somebody please go with me!! At least when I give you a look that says HELP ME, you'd understand it.
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Someone got me interested in writing again, maybe because today all I could think about was kissing him and getting up the nerve to kiss him - damn, I mean he was here all day and in my bedroom once and it wasn't until he left - we started talking about erotica..then again, maybe I wanted him to make the first move, pretty sure he doesn't have a girlfriend at least I hope not since the very sight of him makes me wet and today, I could not concentrate on any work related things, especially not while this hot sexy guy was working on my house - there's a story brewing here..coming soon
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