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mystic muddle still in effect :::: Saturday, January 28, 2006

BC - thank you, you are beautiful :)

as far as the mystic muddle goes..i think its still there..

I GOT MY DATA BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY DANCE

and then I dropped my laptop, it just slide right out of my hand and now the screen is all funky and no I didn't have a backup because I was about to do the backup but the battery was dying, so I went to plug it in and it fell (although I can still get to data on the laptop over the network, so me thinks it might just be the screen)

my thoughts on the mystic muddle...I think I need to get laid!!! And according to other reading, my mystic muddle should clear up on Feb 1st, BC..thoughts??

who knew changing my hair color to cherry blonde would get me more noticed???? damn if I'd known that, I might have changed my hair color, years ago but then again maybe its just all part of this mystic muddle path that I must take

original comments:
beautifullychaotic - January 28th, 2006
When interests and opinions start clashing you will need to bring it all together and then the process of harmony shall begin. Certain conflicts are causing your heart to take longer and personally I don't see it happening quite as quickly as you want hon.

Try and look past the what is bothering you now to see the real underlying problem! Stability, support and tranquility are soon to touch your heart but without viewing this first, face on, this could slow things down. Strength and balance are strong within you, use it! If you have thought about re-setting your standards lately maybe it is time to give in and then your self esteem shall higher it's level xxxxx Hugs hon be patient.

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WTF? :::: Tuesday, January 24, 2006

this month just sucks..i can't figure out what in the cosmos is fucking with me..

first week of the month - i almost lose it with a client and think to myself why am i doing this type of work - I can't stand it

2nd week - bad news from hell and then waiting and waiting and waiting for a result

3rd week - still waiting for that damn result

3rd week - get the result - good news

this week - hard drive crashes on my main computer - where all my data is stored (no I don't have a backup) and now I have to wait another week to see if the data can be recovered..thank god, I have my laptop but that's my life on that hard drive, my memories, my loves, my backups, my $$, my clients, my company, OMG, its my fucking life.

could it get any worse?? what did I do to piss someone off up there?

good things that happened:
good news on result

added three more clients (although their data is on that hard drive too)

time to take a painkiller and sleep - forget about it all for a little while

so on that note..if you've emailed me before and/or I had your email address, forward it to me again because its currently lost on that crashed hard drive..BC...that means you

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damn it, damn it, damn it :::: Sunday, January 22, 2006

of course, indecent is yet again down and my main computer hard drive fucking crash tonight..everything is on that computer..my whole company - contacts, clients, all my site designs, my money, everything, I mean everything is on that computer and i can't access it. I just want my DATA!!!. Dell sucks, that don't care that someone just lost all their data - the tech support person kept saying, we can restore your backup to a new drive..what part did she not fucking get..I don't have a recent backup...this week has just started out fucked up, I'm behind on my clients, my main computer has crashed along with all my blogs backups and my accounting - i have no idea how much $$ i have..shit..god, I hope df can get it recovered..please let him get it recovered, I swear I'll be better, I will backup it from now on.

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goth boy may have stood me up but at least my shower massager never does

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the beautiful petals within, may we meet again :::: Friday, January 20, 2006

every once in a while you meet someone that is just like you, that one person that could complete your soul, that no matter which direction your lives take you, you always end up on the same path back where you started, talking and talking for hours, realizing that there was a reason that you liked each other in the first place, what started this journey to discovering one another, that unfolding of the rose, seeing the beautiful petals within

if only they wouldn't fucking freak out everytime you start to get close

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goth boy has once again disappeared out of my life, next time maybe he'll be a little more grown up and I might get a another tiny glimpse into his life and yet again, I am disappointed yet calm that because of how much we seemed to be alike and how much are lives are exactly the same - have taken the same paths the last three years that in three more years, we may meet again.

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on the other hand, I'm so fucking tired that everything is making me irritable and I'm crying out of sheer exhaustion. I have so much work and don't even know where to begin except that I need sleep and some time off.

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teasing...a little sweet foreplay :::: Friday, January 13, 2006

I don't neccessarily want to tell goth boy just yet about this site but want to send him a little naughty enticement of what's to come

oh yea, update on this weekend..ackkkkkkkkkkk, my period showed up a week early and our weekend date in the hotel has been postponed to next weekend..so on that note, I'm in the mood for teasing...a little sweet foreplay for goth boy, but which story?

so what's your favorite story that I've posted?

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goth boy updates :::: Wednesday, January 11, 2006

December 13, 2005
I can't believe how hard it is to schedule sex with my goth boy, between his daughter coming to visit which until today totally forgot he had a daugther..oops and me having the flu and my period starting very very soon and him going home for christmas(like he does every year - another fact I completely forgot about until now) and yet we're still talking about hooking up and the weird thing is I remember why I liked him in the first place, we're totally comfortable around each other and yet he is only a sex toy at this point, admittedly a very hard one to schedule but still we're just discussing pure playful fun sex, no strings with one another..sweet.

and I had an idea, hopefully he'll be around wednesday, I sent him an email and said "just because I have my period doesn't mean we can't still have fun. Do you like anal sex? And while I'm on the subject, what else do you like sexually?" I can't ever remember us discussing this on that one date we had ummm like 4 years ago

December 23, 2005
funny thing about him - sometimes I read his emails and shake my head..for someone that only wants to hook for sex - he seems to be really attentive, sending me funny things, emailing me back right away, men - I don't get them, I really really just don't...so anyways, after 2 mos of trying to get together - it might happen after the 27th, at this point, its been so long, I've almost forgot what it feels like *grin*

Jan 11, 2006
after talking to goth boy on the phone tonight for an hour, I completely remember why I liked him in the first place - its like we've known each other forever, its really easy to talk to him and now I know how old he is (30)which tells me how long its been since we've seen each other..

since the last time four years ago, our lives have taken the almost the same path..

about 6 mos after we went out on that one date, he met someone else and dated her for 3 or 4 mos and I too met someone else and dated him for about 3 mos

then he was in a relationship for 3 years and recently that ended about 3 mos ago and I too, was in a weird off again/on again relationship for the last 3 years and it recently ended for me 3 mos or so ago

we both like black & red furniture and cats - yea, that's a weird little fact (although I have to throw orange and deep brown into the mix of colors)

its eerie how our lives have taken the same path

soooo...he wants to take me out to dinner and then a fancy hotel and play all Sunday night..he's paying, I'm good with that. He wants to have fun and be extravagant..i'm totally good with that, someone should spend money on me for once ;)

so hopefully an update Monday night

original comments
expei - January 11th, 2006
will make Monday morning rather pleasant i hope

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cherry blonde :::: Monday, January 09, 2006

its not quite red, more like cherry-burgundy blonde but it works for me and its delicious. I love the new cut too, I cut off about 3 inches and it looks great..pics soon.

goth boy stood me up again, I should just know better..soo no sexy happening here but I'm a cherry blonde

orignal comments:
expei - January 09th, 2006
it will cum

somethingwickedcomes - January 09th, 2006
Pictures. Yes. I love readheads!

TheChef - January 09th, 2006
So do you taste like cherry now too?

Or are you more strawberry?

Stop wasting your time with that dude. Relax, all will come in due time. It's when you're not looking that's when you'll be swept away.

farfromgrace - January 09th, 2006
glad you joined the redhead club, i am currently red myself. *wink* i am thinking about the next color....

sm - January 10th, 2006
hmm, do I taste like cherry? sure why not, I have cherry lube around here somewhere

as for the dude, I didn't go chasing after him, he can after me..he emailed me though and said he was sorry, last minute out of town thingy and maybe some news after tommorrow night..all I want is sex!!!

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cherry blonde :::: Sunday, January 08, 2006

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